A character is the heaviest burden in the world to carry. It’s someone that sometimes thinks and moves and feels things that you have absolutely no reference for, that you need to empathize with and cater for and allow to move through you. That always creates some room for some awkward moments, for the performer that is figuring out how someone else can move in their body, and for the director, who almost always sees something get to someone in a serious way. I’ve dealt with a lot of folks who have personal issues that they were afraid to reveal, or had some hangups about revealing too much of themselves in a character or getting into a character that was so far removed. I’ve had people cry big bad tears in the middle of rehearsals and not be able to truly stop crying until the entire play was over. And I’ve as of recently, had some folks who couldn’t make a single step into character. Continue reading
When I first saw Luther, I was honestly just intrigued by the idea of seeing Idris Elba on a television series. I had missed every single episode of The Wire and had no intention of catching up on an entire two years of BET drama, but I’d seen him in film after film and in him I was well pleased. So when the very first thing I saw was Detective Chief Inspector John Luther standing menacingly over a serial pedophile, watching the man dangle dangerously from a piece of broken catwalk over a dark pit of rusty steel, leaving him to fall to his doom, I was shocked. I was appalled. And I was in Love. Continue reading
So, for those who didn’t get the memo, my mixtape, “The Exorcism of Port of Spain” is almost done. Now just comes the hardest part – the final touches, making sure that it’s safe to be released.
You might wonder what makes it so hard, given that it’s a Spoken Word EP. In honesty, all I have to do is perform a poem in front a mic and process it. But, to me, it’s more than that. I didn’t choose the first few poems I memorize or have written, but the poems that meant something powerful to me and that I imagine might mean something to those in my life. They are stories of people that I’ve met and tried to be there for, and of things I have experienced when no one tried to be there for me. It’s about the demons that I’ve tried to exorcise from the people that spark my Compassion, and of the demons that are still haunting me. In fact, there are a few sitting on my shoulders as I write these words…
The tough thing about being an artist (especially with poetry in my opinion) is that putting your money where your mouth is always turns out to be a very thoughtful and drawn-out affair. After all, the chances of getting the returns you were looking for is so slim that you might as well not bother and save up for a much more sure thing. Some folks take the safer, low-threshold route, like recording their own pieces or doing small paid events. But when it comes to putting your neck out and taking your own hard-earned resources to make something that will last for you, people get a lot more skeptical…
This new year, I’me going to take money out of my pocket to record a Spoken Word LP. It’s something that’s crossed my mind before, in the form of an amateur mixtape project called “Soundtrack Of No Great Success/Surrender” (that I’m still slowly doing), This time, though, I’ve decided that if I want something good and lasting that I can use to market and refer to myself, I need to be willing to reach out and invest in it.
A lot of artists, here and possibly all over the world, are always too worried to invest in their talent because they think they’re not as good as the others or will never get that lucky break or simply don’t have a real chance at making a living doing the thing that they Love. Trust me, it’s nonsense. Worst case scenario, you have something that exists with your name on it, as a testament that you have a talent that you’re trying to hone and be recognized for. Even if it’s not a Top 10 Best Seller, you tried and you have one thing more to show for it than the average guy. You can hate on Rebecca Black as much as you want about her singing and songwriting…but do you have a YouTube video with thousands of views? Thought so…
So I’m about to create. This is just one of many projects that I’m taking this new age to invest in. Send me Blessings.
Here’s a reminder – Our planet changes alignment on 6:05AM on the morning of Friday 21st December 2012. Before you ask, what we thought the Mayans said was wrong – it’s not the end of the world. But the Mayans were still right, in a sense – it is the end of the world as we know it.
The new era that we’re going into is, ideally, a more spiritual one. Some of you might’ve noticed that friends of yours were becoming more in tune with their spiritual sides. Maybe it was just weeks or months ago, or maybe it was since the year before for the folks who were more connected to the change they had to make for themselves. Maybe some of your friends have shown more enlightenment, and have played a bigger part in your life as supporters, friends, counselors and confidantes.
You might’ve also noticed some of your friends making falls lower than they ever have. You would’ve seen some of your friends have some violent upheavals, whether it was financial troubles, difficulties with keeping a job or finding a place to live, addictions and terrible mistakes, sickness and passing away… You may not have noticed that these things are the trials those people need to either break free of the bindings on their lives or to recognize those bonds and move to free themselves from them.
And, for some, this past week has either been a brilliant Blessing or a time of much more upheaval. Because, for those who have found where they need to go to, the Universe has started preparing them for that move. For those who still are where they were, the Universe is finishing the job of tearing their muscle to make them stronger.
On 6AM this Friday, you’re going to blossom into the person you will be for the rest of your entire life. And you choose where that person is, what soil he or grows on and whether you’ll get the sunlight that you need. Your petals spread apart from now, which means those decisions happen now. So, just in case you were wondering, you’re flowering right as you read this…
What kind of flower are you?
So I’ve acted for Secondary Schools Drama Festival. I’ve co-directed a play all the way to Naparima Bowl. I’ve performed in front of strangers, at schools, in auditions, and even at Queen’s Hall. Who would’ve thought that my hardest performance was one that, for the most part, I didn’t even intend to do.
I spent three hours asking a friend’s mother maybe the most awkward of personal questions ever. Even if she said it wasn’t awkward for her, it was frightening as hell for me.
“What would you say to a person that doesn’t feel worthy?” Continue reading